Looking for a beta
Sep. 14th, 2013 01:32 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
iwasanartistFandom: Castle
Characters/Pairings: Ryan/Esposito, mentions previous Jenny/Ryan
Rating & Warnings: NC-17/Explicit, possibly mild dubcon, shooting aftermath.
Notes: The basic premise is that while things were still all crazy from the season 4 fallout between Ryan and Esposito, Ryan is very nearly killed, which prompts Esposito to re-evaluate their history -- and their future. (And if you're not that familiar with the canon fallout, I think I do a pretty good job of providing enough context.)
I do my best to paint Ryan as bi and knowing it from the start (though closeted to most people), because I don't want to erase his canon history with Jenny, but I also clearly have to diverge from it. Esposito...takes a bit of a journey when it comes to sexual identity, and the fic is really more his story than anything. He just strikes me as the sort who would see himself as super-straight. And when he starts hooking up with Ryan, it's something that he's really selfish about, because he doesn't want to think of himself as anything other than a straight dude -- and really, doesn't want to think about it at all.
But then, as he's forced to confront all these things he's tried to ignore, his perception of who he is and what they mean to each other begins to shift.
I've posted restricted chapters to my journal and screened comments, so if you would like to beta this fic, comment here and I'll grant you access.
Characters/Pairings: Ryan/Esposito, mentions previous Jenny/Ryan
Rating & Warnings: NC-17/Explicit, possibly mild dubcon, shooting aftermath.
Notes: The basic premise is that while things were still all crazy from the season 4 fallout between Ryan and Esposito, Ryan is very nearly killed, which prompts Esposito to re-evaluate their history -- and their future. (And if you're not that familiar with the canon fallout, I think I do a pretty good job of providing enough context.)
I do my best to paint Ryan as bi and knowing it from the start (though closeted to most people), because I don't want to erase his canon history with Jenny, but I also clearly have to diverge from it. Esposito...takes a bit of a journey when it comes to sexual identity, and the fic is really more his story than anything. He just strikes me as the sort who would see himself as super-straight. And when he starts hooking up with Ryan, it's something that he's really selfish about, because he doesn't want to think of himself as anything other than a straight dude -- and really, doesn't want to think about it at all.
But then, as he's forced to confront all these things he's tried to ignore, his perception of who he is and what they mean to each other begins to shift.
I've posted restricted chapters to my journal and screened comments, so if you would like to beta this fic, comment here and I'll grant you access.
